I have never lost a spouse. I’ve misplaced a few, but never through death.
Danny called me tonight – I think he is searching for his. He told me he’s thinking of packing up his house and going to Japan. I said hell no. Not for a year, you do not make that kind of life changing decision NOW! And I know I guilt tripped him. I told him that his children have lost their Mom and he does not have the right to drink himself to death and deprive them of a Dad too. He told me how much he’s always loved talking to me. Sarcastic as the rest of the bastard children. I told him I love him and to please get professional help. And call me anytime he wants to. Ok Mom. And did I tell you – I think I’m going to pack up the house and move to Japan….
How many times have I told people….you can not reason with someone whose drunk. Tomorrow he probably will not remember talking to me.
Thank you God for my own sobriety. Help this child find peace.